falling off the wagon

I have a shopping addiction. I admit it. Im addicted to shopping and mostly what I buy is little crap that I don't need. Some stuff that I even wonder why I bought it!
Well I was doing really well. I only shopped a little and with my own money. I was proud of myself. But then my grandpa got sick and we have to take care of him at our  house.
And well,  I fell off the wagon big time! I was buying everything and anything that remotely interested me even if it was only for a moment. and i just needed that moment to buy it, leaving me to wonder why did I buy that?
Anyway it got worse and worse until I ended up cutting my arm with a pin trying to carve the words : bad girl"  It was when I realized I needed help not only with shopping but with my cutting problem.
so I called my therapist and set up an appointment as soon as possible.
We talked and soon got to the root of  my shopping and cutting problem. It was due to my PTSD. and so if anyone is reading this blog and has a shopping problem I just want to say I know how you feel and where you're coming from. dont despair admit you have a problem and talk to a doctor about seeing a professional to help you with your problem!

Sorry I havent been posting lately but Im back! (Again)

There has been a lot of things that have been happening in my life lately. What I really want to talk about is the great guy I met. We met online, and we clicked right away. HE a poet, ME an artist of paints, graphite and graphic design.  He is the sweetest person I ever met. and I have gone on a lot of dates. im not a slut though, my last romance was 4 years ago and it ended badly. Since then I have been afraid of dating. But that all changed when I met this wonderful man. We went on our first date yesterday. We went to a bookstore that had a cafe in it. We talked about art, poetry, being published. YES HE'S A PUBLISHED POET how awesome is that???? we laughed we smiled and the time went by way too quickly. I think I'm falling in love. a real kind of love. not puppy love or school girl love. But please dont panic, I'm taking it slow. I promise. anyway this is just a quick update on whats happening in my life